submerged

again.

the time when everything drops to an ultimate low, with very little pulsing, the time when my emotions goes out of control.

the time when feelings of stress, abandonment, distrust, paranoia & helplessness overwhelm my world.

the time of getting annoyed at everything and anything, everyone and anyone, of hating the world and dreading my life, of self-hatred, of self-despise, and wishing I had done something different to my life.

urgh. I hate it and these feelings. Yet it happens more frequent than not. I think I am emotionally unstable. I snap at people for no reason, laugh at myself, and get angry over the most negligible things. The ultimate? I almost fkn cried in the MRT today while thinking about some stuff. HOW FRICKING SCARY IS THAT. omg.

And at this time, just leave me alone & let me be. i ask of you close ones to please tolerate it.

i just wanna crawl back into my comfort zone.

Yeh, that's what I'm gonna do. Gonna go hide in that comforting spot where I hope this period will pass and I will, one day, smile from the heart again.

tata.