too often, i stumble upon blogs/facebook profiles filled with declarations of love, expressions of happiness and pictures of bliss.

and stuff as such makes me feel jaded, and stressed. Seriously, I don't know whether to be worried, or envious of these people. Worried because I don't believe in everlasting happiness, and instead, expect everything to end in disaapointment, one way or another (cues: guitarhero song). Envious because they have the liberty of love & hope, as well as the courage to put themselves in an emotionally precarious position in the pursuit of seeking true love.

is it really that easy to fall so deeply in love? I know its not easy for me to spout the three words now because I want to take on the responsbility that comes with it.

I wonder if I can ever go back to the times when 'love' means something so straightforward.. but right now, I still think that 'love' is eroded, and irresponsible if you declare it without careful consideration of where it takes you. I've always been careful not to say these words in a moment of passion, gratitude, appreciation or whatever other extreme emotion.

of course, it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy when i hear the three words whispered in my ears. but committing myself to the huge responsiblity that comes with spouting those words, is another.

that's what's making me so scared.

(Note to the NTT DM: this post is not directed at you. don't anyhow think ah. thanks for the patience you've showered on me for the longest time since I remember.)